It was "her"!! The one who appeared in my dream for twice now!
The first time was after i came back from NS for a short period, i dreamt her. Yesterday, she appeared again! But this time, i was not able to recall her face, just a hazy image. The reason is obvious. I was too shy to look at her face. This happened a lots in my past, especially when i was alone with any girls as i was a very shy boy back then, a totally different person from the "me" of now.
This time, i can call this "alone with her", since i couldn't dream of any other person, just she and me. The moment i woke up this morning, it was so refreshing as if i had just taken my morning shower or done morning exercise. That feeling was really special. The moment i woke up, i couldn't stop thinking about her. Perhaps i might not be able to dream her again.
In my case, i rarely had any dreams since my secondary school. So if such person appeared in my dream, not for once, but twice, i wonder what do i think about her all the time. Even if i couldn't talk much with her, i didn't regret on anything, instead i felt grateful towards our encounter. 「俺たち初めての出会う」。。。
translate: oretachi hajimete no deau
I remember i wrote a long text about our encounter:
final part i decided to cut it. =P [must be cencored] XDD
and, last time i'm not good enough in my "English", so the sentences might sounds weird(i corrected them those around the last part).
It was 21st of February 2008 (元宵节).
For the 1st time i tried to start a random conversation with her. I was glad that i started the conversation. It was also for the 1st time i had talk to her. I was quite nervous all the time. However, it was kind of relaxing during our conversation. When i looked at her, i felt that as if the time had stopped.
That was an unforgettable scene, that night, that classroom, only lighted with candles, starry night sky, i stole a few quick glances at her every once in awhile. I was unable to keep my eye off of her even for a minute or two. On the other hand, i was too shy to do so all the time. My brain was just full of the images of her expressions. It was the sweetest night i had ever have.(but not when i was sleeping though =P)
For the 1st time her face appeared in my dream. Of course i hoped that the dream could be everlasting like a song. But, even a song will soon reach an ending. However, the feeling will remain in the bottom of my heart-that was my dream.
Nothing in this world can remain unchanged, but i realised that there were "something" which is still remain unchanged-my feeling. My feelings towards her are still the same, which is just like an everlasting song of mine. The looping of the song is just like my feelings.
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